The days leading up to this journey were filled with anxiety and fear. Prayer was much needed as the desire to go in the past had turned into wanting to run. I no longer want to go, I desperately longed to stay as so many things distracted me. But God is gracious. He knows our hearts and speaks. He provides perfect timing.
At the airport a friend asked, “What was I afraid of?” She provided encouragement, reminding me to be open to the Spirit’s moving. She went on to share, showing His love can be as simple as an affirming squeeze of the hand, a smile, a gesture to say, “I see you.” to the one who feels unnoticed. “Just trying and being willing goes a long way.” she said.
On one of the layovers, a team member and I were sharing about how there are so many people who are suffering and the great need for Christ and His work to be done.
“We do what we can to do our part.” I said.
He responded, “Sometimes it’s doing more than our part, sometimes it takes going beyond what we are capable. It’s at those moments when we are actually stepping out in faith, relying on and trusting our God. And it’s then, when we see God move and do immeasurably more than we can imagine. And we are the ones who receive the blessing, seeing God work.” I’d understand better and see living examples of this within the next 24hours.
I had never thought about God’s work this way. I had been taught, “We do what we can and let God do the rest.” And in the more recent years, emphasis on the importance of resting and not over-extending ourselves had been stressed. “You already are doing so much. You don’t need to do more.” people repeatedly told me.
While there is some truth to balancing our lives and not burning out, I was challenged to think differently about what stepping out in faith looks like. What does it mean to be called and do His work? Is it enough to just do what we are capable of or what we think we are capable of handling? Or is there more that Christ calls us to?